Tonight I was asked where I would live if I could be anywhere in the country... Its not something Ive ever really thought about. I always just thought that I would stay in Stoke until I am old, crinkly and eventually burnt and spread over "the club" carpark...I realised something though. I am no longer opposed to moving away. It would have to be somewhere close enough to be able to get back to see my family at least once a week but other than that I do not have anything keeping me in Stoke. I never really have to be honest. I just seem to be good at sending myself on guilt trips wondering what other people would do if I left, whether I would miss Jaya growing up etc...But the answers are simple.. Me and mum have always had an agreement that the first person who leaves the house, leaves it with the other.. After over 3 years of living together, (and another 17 before on top of that!) Im sure she understands that I will need to fly the nest eventually. And, at the moment I usually only get to see Jaya once a week.. it would just mean that she would look forward to uncle Adies visits even more!
Seeing as Im not moving anywhere, Im doing a pretty good job of trying to explain my reasons behind why I would arent I?! Thats why I come here though.. To have a good "Wah wah wah wah wah" about nothing imparticular!
I am seeing Andrew later today and we are going to go back to Trentham gardens for some more posh food and a wander down the shops. If you have never been to Trentham gardens, wherever you live, it is a must do and with the right person can be ever so romantic!! Andrew is such a nice guy and for some bizarre reason seems to think alot of me..Some of the things that he says and texts to me are just Sooo nice and Im not used to it. But saying that, I think the feeling is quite mutual..I happen to think he is rather wonderful. But poor Jasey, everytime Im on the phone to him I waffle my little head off about "andrew this" and "andrew that." Its all good though.. I feel great.... Actually, Let me rephrase that.. If I had slept more than 4 and a half hours yesterday and if it was not 3.07am in the morning then I would feel great. As is it, I feel like ive been trampled over by a herd of rhinos!.
I am starting to run out of things to post about.. If someone could kidnap my mother or something to give me a bit of goss, it would be muchly appreciated... Cheers.. thank you.
Laters xx
2007-04-27 @ 07:57