We all went for our Christmas meal with our dad and mummy Julie last night. We all had a great night and were chocka block full with good food and good spirits. (or maybe that was the couple of pints I had?!) Probably the highlight of my night personally, was my dad asking me to be his best man for when he gets married in October.

I never actually thought that I would be the person that would be asked to be the best man on his day, although I did have a fleeting thought a few weeks when my dad text saying he wanted to ask me something. It turned out to be whether or not I would be able to make the wedding on a Sunday because they couldnt get the venue on the Saturday. Immediately, I dismissed the idea that I would be the person he asked and assumed it would be my grandad or a friend of his.

For my sisters wedding, I went on the hen night instead of the stag night because me and beverley anne are about as close as a brother and sister can be. I would not have missed it for the world and have no regrets. The thought of the grooms paint balling stag activity did not really rock my world as I bruise easily and had visions of them all playing "shoot the resident gay!" However, Im already really looking forward to helping to organise my dads stag party and playing a part in a wedding that I wasnt sure at first that Id have any part in. After Christmas, Im going to do some investigative work and then we can go from there with it all!

More than anything, I want to make my dad proud of me. I know it must be hard as a man to have the only aire to the thrown and family name to be a big Jessy. (Even if he is the spit of his father.. cool, suarve, sophisticated...) Him asking me to be his best man has kind of given me some kind of reassurance that I guess ive needed for years now. I have never been treated as an outcast by anyone but I am the kind of person that labels myself before others can. Whenever I am out with dad and we meet people Ive not seen before and he has to introduce me as his son, I feel ashamed for him.. im just strange like that. Always have been.

Maybe this will put my demons to rest.

I truly am honoured.

Just dont speak to me about a speech.