I would like you to all meet the first piccies of my niece.. bumpette de le bumper!  The scan was amazing and would recommend to anyone!! xx

Tomorrow, I am going to Warrington to attend a 3D scan with Beverley Anne. It is a little treat of mine for her and Quin as someone at work had one done and they look rather amazing! She is going to find out if she is having a girl or a boy and so I will post and report my findings. Personally I think its going to be another little girl but it would be nice to have a little nephew so that I can buy some of the little cute boys sailor outfits n a pair of dungarees etc.. otherwise it will be a case of just buying a lot of what I have already bought - which would also be fine!

I realised this morning that there is one thing that makes me smile whenever I look at it.. and it is a present that I had from jaya, my neice for Christmas. I have attached a photo of it below. It is funny how the simplest of things can make me happy.. Which is where I should refer to Andy...But Im not going to, cos its a friday and our 2 month anniversary and Im been nice!

  You can even see where Ive just picked it up and held it sometimes.. I do love my little neice I do.  Actually, do u know what - another neice would be more than fine by me if she is half as beautiful as the one Ive got! 

 I sometimes feel as if my relationship with some of my family is slipping away from me now that I am seeing them all less.  One good thing that has come from me moving to Coventry is that I at least make a conscious effort to visit my gran sometimes when I visit which is something I failed to do when she lived on my doorstep!  When I get the new place, Im going to invite all of my family over at some point and go on a night out with them. It is long overdue.

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Currently I have 3 options:-

1.  Looking to rent a studio/flat/house with Andy...Yes I know it hasnt been long, but we are spending all of our time together and I can honestly say I love him to bits and so it seems to be a very feasible option at the moment.
2.  Looking to rent in a house share somewhere that will accept Andy staying over most nights.
3.  Seeing if I can find a house share that will accept couples.

  I am very apprehensive about going into a house share where I would not know anyone especially when the ones that I have been looking at so far are full of straight men. (I know I know, straight men are not bad people, but I have this deficiency when it comes to trying to talk to them... I get all paranoid that they are going to think I fancy them if Im nice to them!)

  The guy im renting off at the moment very kindly told me last night that I have got 4 weeks to find somewhere and move. Failing that, Ill have no choice but to ramble about on the streets or pitch a tent at work! 

Oh, and on the job hunting front.. heard nothing about nothing..

Pah! PAH! PAH!!!

*WHINE ALERT*

Ok, so before this week, I was looking for another job. Everything else in my life I was quite happy with.. Until last night, when I was told by my housemate that I needed to find somewhere else to live. The reasoning behind this is that his brother needs my room as he will need to move in with his son. Whether this reason is true, I very much doubt but I have asked if it has been anything I have done and he insists not. I suspect he may just wish to have the house to himself which is a fair enough request as I know he has never had a lodger before.

It gets me asking whether Ive been a pain though. I have kept myself to myself for the most part, cleaned up all my mess, never interrupted him, been away most weekends, offered to cook him food if he is in when Im cooking, crept around in the mornings if he is still in bed...

But on the other side of the coin, I have had Andy stopping over most nights.. I had asked him before hand, during and since he has requested to move if this was a problem but he insists not.

Im just sick of things taking a nose dive every time something is going wrong. My instinct again tells me to run back home to Stoke, but logic tells me I need to ride the wave... where to though, God only knows!

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Two good things have happened today:-

1.) Work have brought us an easter egg and non hot, hot cross buns that I dont really like anyway! The thought was there though.. Now if only they would give us two minutes off the phones to actually eat them, that would be lovely.

2.) I have had an email regarding one of the better jobs that I had applied for saying that they had tried my phone number and had not been able to get through to me. I have contacted them back (apologising profusely for my stupidness) they have said that they have a couple of possibilities for me and will be letting me know next week. I have told them my minimum salary expectations and they seem quite happy that they could offer something to meet this. Of course, theyre probably just feeding me shit so it has all been taken with a pinch of salt!

Thank God we have got 4 days off... I feel absolutely shafted!
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After much deliberation, I decided to ring Vodafone today and ask them if I could change my mobile phone number. This was for the usual kind of reasons.. y'know how it is, lesbians pestering for sperm because they want a baby or random people Ive spoken to once on the internet texting me at 3am pissed up and asking when im going to meet them etc. I just thought best to start afresh with no eejits!

I must admit that every time I call Vodafone, they make me genuinely feel like a special customer and today was no exception. The gentleman on the other end of the phone listened to my sob story and I didnt even have to start sobbing down the phone for him to change over my number free of charge, waiving the £25.00 fee that my Vodafone friend had told me Id be charged unless quoting a police crime reference number...

There is just one thing that has foiled this little plan... I have been sending my CV out to the world and his brother over the last couple of days.. The one contact telephone number I have on there is the number that is now none existant...

I suppose its an easier way of handling rejection.. I can now go to sleep imagining that everybody in coventry wanted to give me a job paying double the wage I am on now but try as they must, they simply could not get in touch with me...

Pah.. fucking fuck...

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I was watching one of the first series of dragons den last night. Some of the ideas that people come up with are crazy! Some really good ideas, and some really bad ones. You have to wonder where they pull the creations from. I just wish I could think of something that could change the world.. The only inventions that I think would half work are after Ive stepped out of an Anne Summers shop...and who would I try them on.. I aint risking my own Giblets!

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Courtesy of my gorgeous boyfriend, my CV is now ready to be distributed among the Coventanarians and their jobsies that they may or may not want to give me. This time, I wont be accepting just any shitty job, and it CERTAINLY will not be a call centre job as I am now on suicide watch at work incase I throw myself out of one of the windows.

I was hoping when I started with my company that there would be ga zillions of oppurtunities. They certainly made it out that way in the interview and implied with my experience, I would be one of the first in the promotional lineage. What I have been faced with is the brutal reality that because the jobs here are so cushty after you slave the call centre and because they do pay well compared to most other companies, no fucker wants to leave the high and mighty and so the jobs that someone actually wants to do, never actually come up!

Let the searches commence!

I think im turning into a house bitch.. I keep on "cooking"... and last night I even managed to season some pork chops (only with pepper but its a start!) mash potato (from potatoes and not from smash!) and vegetables (frozen, but we are getting there slowly but surely!) Tonight, it is sweet and sour chicken with rice and vegetables...before long Im going to be cooking my own bloody lasagne!

Small steps Adie.. SMALL STEPS!! xxxxx

Hello Campers,
Firstly, I shall start on a somewhat sour note.. I know that to some this may sound like I am been bitter but read into it however u want..

On Saturday morning, I received a text from my friend Stacey saying:-

"In the club in Hanley.. Just seen your ex Andy!!"

Fair enough, I thought... Nay mind as I speak to him now and again and my new Andy and ex have even met.. no hard feelings at all. But then she rang me and after speaking to her for a while, it seems as though she not only had a good old chin wag with my ex, she actually attempted to spend her whole night in the club with him and his new boyfriend, to the point where she "thought she may have been doing his head in cos she kept trying to talk to him.." .. I may come from another land but in my world, friends dont generally do that. Dont get me wrong, a wave and a hearty "Hiiiyaaaa!!" would have been fine.. even maybe a few pleasantries. But SHE actually lingered around him like a bad smell.. I dunno.. Im a bit highly strung when it comes to things like that, especially seeing as she only actually met him twice! She has just always been the kind of friend that is quite stubbornly loyal! She is a friend that previously anyone will tell you, I havent had a bad word to say about which is probably why this little thing she has done has disappointed me so much. Im sure Ill get over it in about.. Ooh, a day or two but I think she could tell I was a little off-ish on the phone!

From today, Andy has given up smoking. He is doing it for both money and health reasons. Ive never been out with someone who smoked before but to be honest, I can say that there have not been many times that I have been able to smell anything smokey on him. Some people ooze the smell of tar, but he always smells so scrummy!! A big good luck to him anyhow! He hasnt got the "typical look" of a smoker and thats the way he says he wants to keep it!

I had my first easter egg yesterday from Andys mum. It is a HUWAGE cadburys cream egg one.. you know the ones that are about a tenner in the shops?! It looks scrumdiddlyumptious and I cant wait to have a bit of a nibble!! Andys mum is rather lovely though and makes me feel so at home! Plus between us, we can defeat Andy in the banter stakes!!

This brings me on to the diet (Have had to add this in from first post because I "conveniently" forgot to talk about it!) I weighed in at 12 stone 1 this morning, mainly due to 2 chinese buffet meals, 1 indian meal, and 1 chippy tea devoured over the weekend. The scary thing is that I still am not 100% sure that I am quite ready to diet yet. You know when you have "that" feeling? It just aint coming! Is this wat been content is like?!

This weekend has been another great one. It seems like im in a big fat happy bubble and there aint noone that can come and pop it!! So, be gone with your pins!! Seriously though.. Life is great.. and Im seeing my family this weekend!! Woo woo!! xxxx

Ive also popped a photo in from Saturday night of me and Andy... Just cos, well, I can! xxxx

16:00 Kevin : Your a funny Guy adrian... and one that I'd sure like to have a drink with some day... (in a strictly non-gay freindly sort of way I mean) I wasn't asking you out... But I would like to know you outside these walls... you interest me greatly.

Yay!! Someone thinks Im funny and interesting!... I dont have enough friends in Coventry.. The day just got better, plus im doing my CV tomorrow and throwing it out to everyone and their sister!

xxx

It has been quite difficult today locating the Friday feeling. This week has not been the best at work and so far today, it does not look as though it is going to be getting any better. However after eating 3 snack-a-jacks, and a galaxy caramel with my shit healthy soup, I am coming that little bit closer to locating that feeling deep inside of me.. The one that is crying out for the weekend!!

And with only 4 hrs and 15 minutes left, let the weekend roll!!

Diet aint gone well this week. I have managed to put on a pound or two.. Im going to let myself off because it has not been easy eating around the late shifts. Im starting again on Monday. I fear im going to be around 12 stone 3 by then... As always, Ill be honest with you and let you know.. I wanna lose around half a stone for a friends party in a couple of weeks. Gays will be present and I know what a kick some of them get out of telling people that they have put on weight. ("Oh but u look better for it babes...") FUCK OFF!!

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When I was doing a "tornado" through tesco this week, I was looking at Kellogs fruit and fibre... Andy ran and grabbed the "tescos own brand" stuff.. At first I turned my nose up at it but he told me to get it and try it.. At a third of the cost I figured it wouldnt hurt to try something different... But OH MY JESUS CHRIST... I am addicted to the stuff. It is the nicest cereal by far that I have had in.. well.. ever!  It had made me think though.. I really should start trying stores own brands more. At the moment, I have tescos beans (which are my favourite beans) and tescos wet wipes... and now tesco cereal... and Ive bought a couple of tescos soups to try...

 Embarrassed as i may be if anyone goes near my kitchen cupboards.......Brand shmand!
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I have ordered Andys easter egg this morning online. I have paid extra to have it shipped for tomorrow because it is sods law that the bloody thing would not have come otherwise and tomorrow is the only day I am leaving for work a bit later so may be in when the driver drops his load! Oh, its like Santa coming all over again!

Things have gone from good, to great, to positively marvellous with Andy. I wrote in a previous entry about meeting someone who you have the "click" with and someone who wants the same from life as you do. I think Ive met THAT guy and I can hand on heart say I have never felt this way about anyone before. I never truly believed in love at first sight...but this is about as close as I have come. I knew the first moment I clapped eyes on him that there was something magical about him.. And Ive come to realise it is more than his "art" of breaking wind to the tune of "merrily we roll along.." When he is in the room, noone else is there.. When I look at him, I honestly see the most beautiful man in the world.. whether it be first thing in the morning, or last thing at night... At a time where I had finally resigned myself to the fact that maybe noone would be able to cope with me and my ways, and that even the ones that could, I wouldnt want.. He came along.. Just like in the fairytale I always wanted... he truly is my prince. And every time I mention his name, I am sure you have seen that I go off on a bit of a tangent.. And for the first time, I am in a relationship whereby I dont have a bad word to say about my other half... I love him to bits, farts 'n all!

Have a good day everyone! xx

I should not have woken up this morning.. and when I did, I certainly should not have even contemplated coming into work!

There seems to be something sitting squarley in my bonnet and I think it may be a little larger than a bee.. Try, a big bloody humungous missile that is about to explode...

I have had a meeting with my manager at work because at the moment I am just about ready to drop down dead with the boredom during the day. He has said that he has 2 different directions in which he would like to move me, one been to inside sales, and the other been to the management team who sort out problems instead of just passing them on.(like I do..) There will be a job coming up in our sales office very shortly and I am going to apply for it. However, so are about 50 other people. I am sure that my manager will sufficiently prep me for the interview but I am quietly confident that there is not a cat in hells chance in my getting it. The reason been that :-

A.) I cannot give a presentation to people which is a requirement in the interview. I handle interviews brilliantly but public speaking is not an area in which I excel. Quite the opposite in fact.

B.) I was in the last training class for my job so they are not about to move me straight to somewhere else.

How people do the job that I am doing day in day out for longer than a few months, I havent got a bloody clue. I take on average around 80-100 calls a day, spent on average 6.30-7 hrs man time on the phone per day, and have the customers repeat the same queries to me day after day after day. I am constantly manned on my "on hold time" my "not ready time" and my "average talk time" (all of which you will be pleased to know I am hitting target for!) But no day ever seems to be different. And yet, you have to remember that the person at fault for this is not the customer on the end of the phone.. even if you are telling them the same thing that you have told another 40 people that day and even if they are raising the same arguments that the person before you raised.. and the person before that... and before that...

My old job in IT was quite entertaining. No two days were ever the same. But I wouldnt go back to working silly shifts again for love nor money..

Why I cant get a job as chief tester for mcvities, Ill never know! Knowing my luck it wouldnt pay more than £3.00 an hour if I did!

PAH!!

Oh, and well done to Jamie who has now completed 10 days worth of "non smoking"... Jamie, now Ive mentioned you, you just watch the slating your get if you kick in with it again now!! very well done though!!

oh, and Andy (my ex) has put his house up for sale. It seems a bit wrong that I moved to Coventry to live with him and now hes the one moving away..

oh, and my andy is still very much the love of my life whom I am going to marry and live the fairytale with! Every minute of knowing him is making me fall deeper and deeper for him... Although he may single-ise me when he finds the video Ive posted of him and Stacey on my facebook account... Oops..
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On Friday as promised, me and Andy went to visit Stacey and had a few drinks (4 bottles of wine, a few bottles of beer and half a bottle of tequila that Stacey magicked out of nowhere) .. The result? Myself, Andy and Stacey miming Whitney Houston power ballads into a pink UN-USED (we are assured it scares her too much!!) rampant rabbit that had been purchased by Stacey at the previous weeks Ann Summers party. I did manage to film both of them going for it with the dildo but I believe that on a mobile phone not so far away, I was also caught and so dont want to be spreading their videos around in case I end up on youtube!!

On Saturday, although very hung over and heaving every other second, we managed to make it to Beverley Annes (after Andy had stopped the car to ask an old couple directions in the gayest voice he could muster and minced up and down Co Op asking people silly questions like "Oooh, I love Ribena, do you?!") and after having a chin wag with the Dame, we took Beverley to my grans and then on for something to eat and a good old laugh, before leaving back to Coventry!  The high point for me had to be when we were standing at the bar ordering food and I put on a very serious face and turned to Bev and said:-

"Bev, you really are going to have to do a test to find out whos the baby is..."

 Not been used to this, my sister simply gawped at me for a few seconds, regained her composure and proceeded to batter me with a menu in front of the bar maid.. Muchly deserved me thinks! We still had a laugh about it though!!

Yesterday was spent relaxing up until we went to Asda to do some much needed "healthy food shopping." We got around half way around and I completely lost my rag and we left the trolley and walked out. I am going to try again in Tesco tonight. I can throw right Diva strops when I want to!  When we got back, we went to Andys grans for lunch and then back to his house to listen to some sloppy music and have a cuddle wishing yet again, that the weekend would never end!

 But here I am, on Monday morning.. yet again.. knowing that there are around 100 customers Im going to speak to today. Each with a chip on their shoulder and each gunning for a piece of my ass! Ah well, things could be worse.  I could be the person at Asda who has to empty the trolleys that prats like me leave half full!

Me, Stacey and the love of my life...

I dont suppose I can be that concerned about my weight at the moment because before I left for work I had about 400 of the cadbury chocolate biscuits out of the "magic tin" that appears to be never ending.. Since then, while moaning about my weight gain to my colleagues, I have consumed nearly half of a box of roses that a colleague bought in for his leaving present, a twix, and a jacket potato with beans and corned beef! Obviously, im not quite in the "zone" to be dieting just yet. Pah, love me, love ma lumps!

I am really excited about my plans this weekend. Tonight, me and Andy are making our way up to Stoke when I finish work and are going to see my little Broad Bean where we will drink, eat, drink, eat a little bit more, be merry, cry, and then throw our guts up. I am really excited because I think Broad and Andy could be quite a tag team when they get going! Ill let you know how it goes!

Tomorrow, im going to go around Bevs early ish, and am going to spend some quality time with my family... Will hopefully see the Dame if she comes and visits us after she finishes work and then go for something to eat at some point with Bev. We will probably make our way home tomorrow night so that we can lie in bed all morning on Sunday! (This may or may not involve breakfast in bed!) We are then going to Andys grans on Sunday afternoon for dinner before going back to mine and lazing about in bed all night! Sounds like a great plan hey?!

Have a good one everyone!! Stay safe and take care xxxxx
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Well, its got to be the making up aint it!?

12 stone and a quarter this morning.. Am aware that should be nipping at bud. Brain says yes, stomach says no.

Fuck it. Just.. Fuck it.. xxx

Last night I went for a chinese with my mate Mikey. We had a great catch up and chat about this that, everything and its dog. But I think on 4-5 (I lost count) plates of chinese food and a modest dessert, my tummy is still feeling as if it could burst. The scales have confirmed what I firstly thought. 11 stone 13 and a half.. I am grateful for the 1/2 pound that seperates me from 12 stone! :-P

Me and Jasey are having a break for a while. Im not sure whether this while is going to turn into indefinitely because he is wanting to sort a few things out in his head and Im sure that at the moment the way things are standing could mean that our friendship is in the chopping line. I could go into it, and into it and into it some more and still some people wouldnt understand. For now, it is worth mentioning and maybe when I have a few hours spare, Ill do a private post on it.

Ive awoken in a foul mood this morning. Had a bit of a ding dong with Andy last night which involved the stupidest of things blown out of all proportion in both my own and his head. (Talk about winding each other up!) It was sorted by the time I went to bed last night but Ive woken up not in the best of moods this morning so the customers are going to be in the firing line!

Have a great day everyone.. xxx

*Adie reading through a joke text from my friend Broad*

*phone at work rings through*

*Adie puts on bestest phone voice while still reading through the joke*

"Good Afternoon, Your through to Adrian at fucker... "

*adie had got to the punchline in the joke which had an unfortunate word beginning with the same letter as his company name...*

*Adie bursts into hysterics...*

"how can I... Can I... Can I... HAHAHAHAHA"

*Adie cant breathe...*

*Adie hangs up...*

*Adie hopes the nice lady didnt catch his name and that the call was not recorded for training and monitoring purposes...*

Oops. xxxx

On Sunday evening, I was badgered into watching a film with subtitles named "La Vie En Rose." Andy has a "thing" for films with subtitles so I thought I would be supportive and watch the film. I didnt think it was bad actually. I had to wear my glasses and woke up yesterday with a bit of a sore head but the story is actually quite a good one... ish... It won oscars 'n stuff anyway!

Anyway, I have a "thing" for Disney/Pixar animation films. You know whats coming.

After dinner last night, we watched Disneys Brother Bear before going to sleep. In all fairness, although he kept asking silly questions such as "Is this based on a true story..", I think somewhere deep down, he quite enjoyed it!

The next time he makes me watch a subtitled film, the attack is going to be reflected with threats of "the little mermaid.." Whoah yeah!

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Oh, Im annoyed.. and I have a headache.. and noone cares..

The water at work stopped running and immediately we were told that if we needed the loo then we could go home for the day. I dont like to take the piss and so did not leave. Unfortunately, half of the rest of staff here did. Now, the water is back up and running, the calls are coming through constantly one after the other, my head just about feels like it may explode, and the only thanks we have been given by our wonderful management team is asking us to work over for up to 3 hours for the lazy fuckers that went home 3 hours ago!!

I think the word Im looking for is "bastards..."

Lazy bastards
Corporate managing bastards
Bastard Bastardy bastardic blucking bastarding bastards!!!!!

Ah, fuck-a-duck.. I need some sleep!! xxxxx

Unfortunately, I was unable to make it up to Stoke-On-Trent this weekend for Mothers day. However, a pledge has been made to Dame Kazduck by myself and Andy that we will take her for a meal when we go up this Friday/Saturday.  She also has a pressie on the way to Beverley Annes and had a card that I had brought so Im not a complete waste of a son!!

 This weekend has been another great one. I met Andys brother who is such a nice guy.  I had been looking through photos throughout the day at Andys house and kept pointing at a guy on random photos (he didnt look alike in any of them) and saying .."ooh, who is that,, he looks lovely.."  All of them were his brother and by the end of the photo-a-thon, I think my betrothed was getting a little pissed off with me. When we visited him later on, his brother kindly confirmed that on Sunday morning he was going to get in the middle of us in bed thus ticking off one of my "lifes to dos" in sleeping with brothers.  Very kind of him seeing as hes straight! Lol! In all seriousness though, a really genuine lovely guy and his wife seemed really nice too! Andy helped her do a spot of cooking, to which he couldnt resist getting his arse out. Luckily, I had my camera ready and snapped him before he managed to pull them up so if your wondering why I posted an arse then this is the reason. If only I had managed to snap him when he put the pink flowery cooking apron on and pulled his hoody up..that was a sight for sore eyes !!

   I also met Andys gran and she confirmed that the whole family is completely bonkers. She was a lovely woman and we are going to go for Sunday dinner this weekend which shall be nice because I have heard amazing things about her gravy!!

 Oh and the other photo.. Well, its Andy.. And I just think it is Phwoar.. so thought I would post!! xxxx