• Feeling much thinner after 2 days on slim fast. Hoping weight is going to plummet by at least 2 stone by Friday so that can find excuse to devour a curry at weekend.
  • Sick of ringing customers that dont want to speak to me at work. Hit new business at 24% this month. Think I need to have a word with myself. Manager says not to worry until month 5. Not worried anyway. If I get sack then can follow dream of been a gigilo to rich old wench's.
  • Found out last night great aunty dead. Had to have her leg amputated and think that the shock killed her. Very sad.. She used to walk by our house with cute little doggy. Nice lady and a great loss to everyone that knew her.
  • Forgot to say, had brush with death last week. Went for MOT at the GUM clinic. Had the OK on all common riddles such as chlamydia, thrush, etc, but said they would only contact me back on blood test results only if there was a problem. Low and behold, received a letter saying that they had made an appointment for me. Worst 24 hours of my life. Can honestly say that after everything. Lots of crying and panics attack undertaken.  Andy was a rock. I did lots of research and kept thinking that I was going to die before I reached my own fathers age. (said on net average life expectancy for HIV sufferers is around 23 years from diagnosis which I later found out was a load of rubbish but did not help at the time of net surfing) Was convinced was riddled with gay mans disease (HIV).. Went GUM clinic first thing on the Monday morning in panic where was told that was not riddled and in fact I was just not vaccinated against Hep B. Cried lots. Doctor reporting the person who sent me the letter as was no need to be called back. Thanked him. Very nice doctor and quite dishy also in a "not dishy but dishy cos he was so nice and patted me when I cried" kinda way. Not a doctor that has become stale. Reiterated to me that was not riddled with aids. Am eternally grateful and can honestly say will never be a time when I ever put myself in the position that I wont be 100% sure of the result again!
  • Brush with death (lol!) has opened my eyes. Never really had much sympathy before but certainly no time for people who dont help themselves anymore and self pitying types. Have realised that things could be much worse for me and alot of my worrying has been enhanced by the kind of people I have had around me. Lifes too short and feel that i need people around me who look on the bright side of life.  Even thinking about going on another flight. After all, could get run over tomorrow. :-)  

Thats all folks!