http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/ en-EUMokoFeed10http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/df/5bb9b13e526a0fde43edb7d4c1369d_160x200.jpghttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/11/02/fear-of-flying-7295479/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-11-02:/2009/11/02/fear-of-flying-7295479/Mon, 02 Nov 2009 23:11:03 +0100 <p>Hi All,</p> <p>Ive probably mentioned this before, but Ive got ever such a little (HUGE) fear of flying. I am just wanting to know if anyone here can give me any ideas on top of what I have already tried, or if you could make any recommendations then that would also be appreciated!</p> <p>SoOoooOOooo in the past, Ive tried:</p> <ul> <li>Hypnotherapy (did nothing but I did only go once - very expensive!)</li> <li>Getting blind drunk on a night out before going straight to the airport (turned me into a drama queen)</li> <li>Taking cocktails of drugs to knock myself out. (this has been the most successful method yet)</li> <li>Doing nothing at all and cross my fingers and toes to feel better (Probably the worst thing I could do nowadays!)</li> <li>Tried relaxation breathing methods (How are you meant to control your breathing when you cant even think straight!?)</li> <li>Taken online self help online classes - (one of which did make me slightly better for one of the flights that we went on but then on the way back we flew into Manchester and straight into a thunderstorm... thats karma for you!)</li> <li>Viewed around about 10,000 websites and statistics to try and ease my own mind!</li> <li>Even tried looking at the actual crashes/information etc so I can see how they ensured that wouldn't happen again etc.</li> </ul> <p>Ive tried to enroll on something that looks quite interesting. Its called "gogetterjetsetter" and it claims that it can release your fear in 18 minutes or your money back...</p> <p>Watch this space!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/11/02/fear-of-flying-7295479/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>aeroplanesfear-of-flyinghttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/11/02/fear-of-flying-7295479/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/28/swine-flu-7258026/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-10-28:/2009/10/28/swine-flu-7258026/Wed, 28 Oct 2009 03:30:26 +0100 <p>All of my family/friends that I went on the stag do with are coming down with swine flu.</p> <p>Its 10 days until my wedding.</p> <p>Fuck. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/28/swine-flu-7258026/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/28/swine-flu-7258026/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/26/i-love-my-sister-i-do-7250023/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-10-26:/2009/10/26/i-love-my-sister-i-do-7250023/Mon, 26 Oct 2009 23:11:44 +0100 <p>We had our joint stag do at the weekend... It was fabulous and I will upload a few photos that you can have a look at. However, if you have facebook and have added me previously, you can find them all there anyway! My sister arranged it all and chose our outfits which included leg warmers, braces, a light up tutu, hats, whistles, willy straws, and netted gloves. Add on to that a whole load of glitter and that summed our night up! We had such a good time and there was a really good turn out, with the usual 20 people dropping out, but still about 20 showed up!</p> <p>  What I am both happy and upset about is how fantastic my sister has been running around finding bridesmaids dresses/jewellery/shoes for her/her kids/seans sister/seans sisters kid and buying any room decoration for the evening party.  Im happy because there is no way I could have found everything that she has, and it has been a great help to us. On top of this, she has arranged our stag do, and even managed to do us a Sunday dinner the next day sporting a full hangover.  What upsets me about the whole thing is that both me and Sean feel guilty about her having to arrange everything. It does feel as though it has been very one sided although we have got two head bridesmaids and I think considering she works full time as well, she has done a fab job!   I think when it is all over we will be taking her for a meal to say thank you for all of her hard work! <a title="IMG_0095" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/img_0095/4045737"><img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/737/4045737_6fa962c545_m.jpg" alt="IMG_0095"></a><a title="IMG_0032" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/img_0032/4045738"><img src="http://data6.blog.de/media/738/4045738_728c00b83d_m.jpg" alt="IMG_0032"></a> </p> <p> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/26/i-love-my-sister-i-do-7250023/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>photosstag-dobevhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/26/i-love-my-sister-i-do-7250023/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/20/not-so-happy-memories-from-the-lead-up-to-the-big-day-7211421/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-10-20:/2009/10/20/not-so-happy-memories-from-the-lead-up-to-the-big-day-7211421/Tue, 20 Oct 2009 22:04:53 +0200 <p> I came out when I was 15, and can honestly say Ive never had a problem with homophobia or any bigot views. There have been people that have not liked me because of my sexuality, and Ive not liked them back because I have branded them shallow cocknoses. But, I have never really been made to feel as though I should be ashamed of the lifestyle that I choose to lead.</p> <p> I have a few friends at work, some of whom I am fonder of than others. One person that I have always got on with is a particular guy... For the hell of it, lets call him Carl. He is a straight married guy with children but quite camp acting. He is in his 40's and is well known for his "ditzy, faffing, rushing around doing something and nothing" ways and his sometimes quite gossipy and bitchy comments. I should also mention he is one of the team leaders in our department. I have always got on ok with him and have stuck up for him when others would talk about him. "Well, hes always been alright with me" Id say. Boy, did that change when I decided to extend an invite to him for my civil partnership.</p> <p> Because I was unsure on numbers for guests to invite, I decided that it might be best to invite the whole of my team to the evening party and also a selected number from the other section in our department. "Carl" was one of these people. My sexuality had never been an issue in discussion with him, and on the contrary, because the guy was quite feminine I didn't think for one moment that I may have offended him by extending an invite to him to celebrate with us. This rendered me all the more godsmacked when he took me to one side and told me that he would be unable to attend. </p> <p>"Fine!" I stropped in a jokey way that people have come to know and love...<br> "Thats... Just... FIIIINE... N-n-n-oooo I understand.... Better people and parties to visit..." all done in a typical humourous diva strop way.<br> "Actually, no Adrian" He replied... "I wont be coming because I dont believe that what your doing is right..." </p> <p>*Ouch!*</p> <p>"oh... ok then..." I finally managed.<br> "I mean, I like you as a person, but marriage SHOULD be between a man and a woman.." He continued.<br> "But, its a civil partnership not a marriage... and its only really a party your been invited to.." at this point I was trying to justify myself.<br> "but, you see... it would be to celebrate...... *he hesitates*.... THAT."<br> "oh... oh... right..." was all I could manage.<br> "I mean, your a nice person and if you have a birthday party, then Id be sure to come along, but I wont come to this because I dont think its right.." were some of his last words although the whole lot is now somewhat of a blur...<br> "Oh, Im digging myself a hole now aren't I?" He finished... Yes "Carl"... yes you are.</p> <p>*you wont be invited to ANY party of mine in future you fucking twat* was all I could think.</p> <p>And do you know something, I dont think I have been made to feel so ashamed of myself. As a gay man, noone has ever made me feel so dirty for something that should be have been so innocent. And to make it worse, with his bitchy opinionated views, I get the feeling now that he actually enjoyed saying it to me and enjoys hurting peoples feelings in some ways.</p> <p>I found out later that he had aired his view to a couple of other members of staff around the office. This did upset me, but more because I was afraid that others actually agreed with him. I didn't raise this with any management, and decided to just take it as a lesson learnt. However, when someone asked me about my partnership and I could see him in the vicinity, I got very self conscious and had only what I can describe as a wave of shame wash over me. I dismissed any questions thrown at me and kinda skulked off as quickly as I possibly could or quickly changed the subject.</p> <p> It would seem that he didn't think he had offended me enough when late last week a collection went around for my civil partnership and when his block were asked for donations, he told the collector and anyone else that was listening that he wouldn't be giving any money, and again exactly why he wouldn't be and his views on the subject. Would it have killed him to just say "sorry, no." It happened that one of my good friends was the person doing the collection and she was so angry on the lecture that I managed to squeeze out of her what was wrong.</p> <p> I sat and thought about it for about 15 minutes and then had the choice on whether to go over and deck him or go and speak to my manager. I decided to go into my managers office and for want of better words "threw a wobbly" about it. I think having not confronting this issue before, I already had some surpressed hurt to hurl, and boy did I! The goods news was that my manager was extremely supportive and I had the option of taking the whole thing to HR and making an official complaint. I have decided against this, so long as he is told not to air his unwanted views to other people (especially as the majority of the office are friends of mine that are coming to the celebrations) and to not come over for a piece of cake when I bring in goodies on my last day before our day. (cos he really does have the cheek to do something like that.) Whether or not anything will be said to him, I dont know - but I will making sure that he knows before the day as I dont want my last day at work ruining.</p> <p> The support that I have received from my colleagues over all of this, has been absolutely fantastic. Hugs, words of reassurance and a bit of realisation that people actually do like me. It has made me think about things a bit more in depth. I realised, that one person in a group of around 30 was in danger of ruining my "pre partnership excitement chats" (which, lets be honest is one of the most exciting parts!) and that if he doesn't agree with what I am doing, it really is not my problem. Believe me, if it was something in my personality that he disliked, I would try and change. I hate the thought of offending! All I am doing is making a commitment to my partner and going through what is now a legal procedure for doing this. Sure, it would be lovely if I could have people there to celebrate with me, but ultimately, if there was just me, Sean and a few close family, it would be as special.</p> <p> So, I made a decision. I'm going to laugh, joke, and tell people at work all about my wedding/my partnership/my civil ceremony.. whatever you want to call it... like I should be doing. I am not going to be ashamed of myself, and Im going to hold my head high and be proud.</p> <p> Oh yeah, and for my religous friend:</p> <p>“be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you.” </p> <p>Forgiveness is the key to <u>"all"</u> happiness... </p> <p>xxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/20/not-so-happy-memories-from-the-lead-up-to-the-big-day-7211421/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>homophobicweddingbigotcivil-ceremonyworkhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/20/not-so-happy-memories-from-the-lead-up-to-the-big-day-7211421/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/18/plans-7196598/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-10-18:/2009/10/18/plans-7196598/Sun, 18 Oct 2009 21:15:16 +0200 <p>This weekend is the last quiet weekend until we come back from our honeymoon... The line up is as follows -</p> <p>Oct 24th - Stag & Fag night in Stoke On Trent with a Glitter & Sparkle Theme!  I have the best RingSpun T shirt to wear and am hopefully going to get glittered within an inch of my life! Also have Celebrations on the Friday!</p> <p>Oct 31st - The yearly Fancy Dress at my dads which is also been doubled into a 50th birthday party for my papa.  I have a very special outfit to wear this year that has cost me an absolute fortune to get together. Pics will be added closer to the time...</p> <p>November 7th - we have our Civil Ceremony at Brandon Hall Hotel and Spa and lovely evening do!</p> <p>November 10th - We go down to London and have booked in to a relaxation suite for 2 nights at the Hilton Gatwick.</p> <p>November 11th  - We go to see Wicked The Musical (my 5th time and Seans 2nd - there is no other westend that I have seen that even comes close so I figured I would just keep going to see the same one again (and again and again)</p> <p>November 12th - We get our flight to Mexico to stay at the <a title="El Dorado Royale" href="http://www.karismahotels.com/resort/el-dorado-royale-spa-resort-karisma">El Dorado Royale</a> in one of their swim up suites for 2 whole weeks!!</p> <p>Now the only thing I need to figure out is how to lose 3 stone in 3 weeks! ;-)</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/18/plans-7196598/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>weddinghoneymoon50thdadhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/18/plans-7196598/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/16/3-weeks-tomorrow-7184689/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-10-16:/2009/10/16/3-weeks-tomorrow-7184689/Fri, 16 Oct 2009 23:31:30 +0200 <p>As always recently, its been a while since I last posted, but with that said, I dont get any hits any more so Im not really writing this for anyone other than little old me to look back on when im on my fourth big gay wedding!</p> <p> Things are going well. The dresses have been completely changed to some Alfred Angelo that Bev stumbled on on ebay and got for a bargain price. The specially made dresses proved to be just a little bit TOO pink for our liking but more than that, both mine and Seans sisters have lovely figures and it seemed a real shame not to show them off! </p> <p> We now have a few more people coming to the day time and so I have had to personalise a few more favours. </p> <p>Just hoping its all going to be worth it!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/16/3-weeks-tomorrow-7184689/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/10/16/3-weeks-tomorrow-7184689/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/08/06/a-perfect-dress-from-aperfectdress-co-uk-review-of-www-aperfectdress-co-uk-6667249/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-08-06:/2009/08/06/a-perfect-dress-from-aperfectdress-co-uk-review-of-www-aperfectdress-co-uk-6667249/Thu, 06 Aug 2009 22:45:19 +0200 <p><a title="Photo286 (Large)" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/photo286_large/3761125"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/125/3761125_7e49b3f956_m.jpg" alt="Photo286 (Large)"></a><a title="Photo283" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/photo283/3761124"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/124/3761124_54bebccb88_m.jpg" alt="Photo283"></a></p> <p>the dress has come - and here are the photos - these wont be posted on facebook or anywhere where all of my guests would see it. I just wanted to really plug aperfectdress.co.uk - As I said in my previous post, they did such a good job, keeping me informed at every step of the way. Once the dress has had a good steaming (and ironing) out, it is going to be perfect. And the dresses are of the same quality to ones that are ten times their price.</p> <p>If you are thinking of using <a href="http://www.aperfectdress.co.uk">www.aperfectdress.co.uk</a> and need ANY info about the service that they offer, do not hesitate to email me on <a href="mailto:adie.williams@googlemail.com">adie.williams@googlemail.com</a> and I will be happy to give you answers to any questions you have from a customers point of view.</p> <p> And the main reason I am posting this is that I know that aperfectdress.co.uk is a new company and when I looked for reviews for work that they had done, I couldn't find anything. I would like people to know how good the service Ive received has been!</p> <p>Other plans going well. Think that I may almost be sorted!!!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/08/06/a-perfect-dress-from-aperfectdress-co-uk-review-of-www-aperfectdress-co-uk-6667249/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/08/06/a-perfect-dress-from-aperfectdress-co-uk-review-of-www-aperfectdress-co-uk-6667249/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/07/16/bridesmaids-dress-final-photos-6529905/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-07-16:/2009/07/16/bridesmaids-dress-final-photos-6529905/Thu, 16 Jul 2009 22:47:47 +0200 <p><a title="pic 020" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/pic_020/3693510"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/510/3693510_309b2ab354_m.jpg" alt="pic 020"></a><a title="pic 025" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/pic_025/3693511"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/511/3693511_9cf238920a_m.jpg" alt="pic 025"></a></p> <p>So here are the final photos of one of the adult bridesmaids dresses. We had the bodice taken down and then taken back up slightly and the above pics are the final results.  The close up photo shows the quality of the seam and its safe to say that we are chuffed to bits with the overall quality, especially considering the money and that it has been hand made with our instructions to the nearest inch!   As we have not had them taken from a specific design, more of a mixture of a few, it is safe to say that the dresses are going to either look absolutely gorgeous, or really terrible.  If it does look terrible then at least I cant blame anyone but myself. I had a fairytale picture in my head, and <a href="http://www.aperfectdress.co.uk">www.aperfectdress.co.uk</a> and Katy the owner there brought it to life!</p> <p> I will update as soon as they arrive!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/07/16/bridesmaids-dress-final-photos-6529905/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>dressbridesmaidsbevaperfectdresscoukhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/07/16/bridesmaids-dress-final-photos-6529905/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/07/03/bridesmaids-dress-6443043/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-07-03:/2009/07/03/bridesmaids-dress-6443043/Fri, 03 Jul 2009 16:09:18 +0200 <p>Have I told anyone that I'm having a big gay wedding?</p> <p>Well, I am .. on the 7th November... And I cant wait!! </p> <p>To cut a long story a little bit shorter, Ive been to visit the following site for my adults bridesmaids dresses:-</p> <p><a href="http://www.aperfectdress.co.uk">www.aperfectdress.co.uk</a></p> <p>APERFECTDRESS</p> <p>Its fair to say that when I trawled through the internet and wedding shops looking for bridesmaids dress, I could find nothing that I wanted. Nothing that came close to the kind of design I wanted. You see, I had an idea of exactly what I want. Me and Sean are going to be wearing the same grey suits, me with a light blue cravaté and him with a pink cravaté. The whole theme around the day is going to be pink and blue.. with a bit of sparkle to add magic to the day! Im not into the whole "modern" thing and so my invitations have been very traditional. On the photos Ive attached, I dont think it does them justice but Ill attach anyway!<a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/proofs_wiplcfav/3652494" title="Proofs_WIPLCFAV"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/494/3652494_7af064958f_m.png" alt="Proofs_WIPLCFAV"></a></p> <p>As there will be no men wearing dresses on the day (not until after midnight anyway! *nudge nudge*) I thought I would like something a little bit more exciting than just a bland bridesmaids dresses. </p> <p>I have 5 bridesmaids and there are 2 of them aged 18 months, 1 aged 4 years old and 2 in their 20's. Ive decided that the babies will wear light blue (pic attached), Jaya will wear the same dress but in white, all costing £55.00 each from <a href="http://www.charmingbridal.co.uk">www.charmingbridal.co.uk</a> and must say that for the money, they are absolutely beautiful... and our sisters who are acting as maids of honour will be wearing pink.</p> <p> The pink dresses were the problem. It seemed that I could get dresses made in china on ebay for $15.00 with $60.00 delivery fee. But I didnt feel confident. And then I stumbled on <a href="http://www.aperfectdress.co.uk.">www.aperfectdress.co.uk.</a> She has basically been through around 30 china dress shops, found a decent one that can understand what she asks them to do - and charges a fee for her to act as the third party in the transaction.</p> <p>So far Katy (manager of <a href="http://www.aperfectdress.co.uk">www.aperfectdress.co.uk</a>) has given me absolutely spot on service and I have got to say that I feel as if she is really earning any money that she is making from the transaction! I really cant recommend her enough! And the cost of the dresses? £125.00 each.. in the UK, costings were well over £500.00 per dress.. And are they any good?? Well so far, Ive had 2 photos of the dresses and have had 3 lots of alterations made. The final alterations are been put into place as we speak and I should hopefully have a final photo to post shortly... </p> <p>But for now, Ill post what I have...along with the ideas for the bouquets.. which will hopefully explain the mixture of colour in the dresses! We dont want it to look as though we are two grooms waiting for a bride! <img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>Hope you like... <img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/5167_blue_1/3652467" title="5167_blue_1"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/467/3652467_1962556c93_m.jpg" alt="5167_blue_1"></a><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/5167_white_1/3652468" title="5167_white_1"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/468/3652468_2b651ceb75_m.jpg" alt="5167_white_1"></a><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/2143/3652469" title="2143"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/469/3652469_3b547464bd_m.jpg" alt="2143"></a><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/3365806703_92eac21dab/3652472" title="3365806703_92eac21dab"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/472/3652472_bf6358ddd9_m.jpg" alt="3365806703_92eac21dab"></a><a href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/bf1065e_bride_in_white/3652473" title="BF1065E_Bride_in_White"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/473/3652473_7a3a08226e_m.jpg" alt="BF1065E_Bride_in_White"></a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/07/03/bridesmaids-dress-6443043/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>aperfectdressdressbridesmaidswebsitehttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/07/03/bridesmaids-dress-6443043/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/06/10/recommended-6278436/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-06-10:/2009/06/10/recommended-6278436/Wed, 10 Jun 2009 19:30:55 +0200 <p>Just had some work done by some guys. They've done a great job. If you need any ground work doing nationwide then I would highly recommend them.</p> <p>W Ascroft Groundworks Ltd<br> Wayne Ascroft<br> <a href="http://www.wascroftgroundworks.co.uk"><a href="http://www.wascroftgroundworks.co.uk">http://www.wascroftgroundworks.co.uk</a></a></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/06/10/recommended-6278436/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/06/10/recommended-6278436/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/02/17/crap-5596498/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-02-17:/2009/02/17/crap-5596498/Tue, 17 Feb 2009 21:04:15 +0100 <p>Im getting crap at this. Crapper than I ever thought I would get. The truth is... Facebook devours most of my time. Im on there updating my status several times a day. Its as though I dont need a blog any more because everyone knows whats going on anyway!</p> <p> Either way, Ive decided that this will be the last entry I post on this here blog. I am going to spend a couple of weeks/days/hours/ making a new one and then will come back to post the whereabouts of it. I do hope that you will follow, and I hope that the new blog will rekindle the love for blogging.</p> <p>Write soon</p> <p>Adie Plops<br> xxx<br> xx<br> x</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/02/17/crap-5596498/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>bloghttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/02/17/crap-5596498/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/21/oh-happy-day-5418547/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-01-21:/2009/01/21/oh-happy-day-5418547/Wed, 21 Jan 2009 16:40:30 +0100 <p>There is a part of me that thinks that I may have a touch of "bi polar" or "manic depressive" disorders. One minute I can be dragging myself along by my front teeth, and the next there are people pulling me down off the ceiling fans. </p> <p> Today I have had the best day at work in ages. I have had my first official review and have scored 3.5 out of 4 overall. The only down sides are that:-</p> <p>1.) I need to have a shave more often. (the cheeky bloody bugger - does he not realise this is DESIGNER stubble!?)</p> <p>and</p> <p>2.) I need to dig a bit deeper with my questions (which I knew anyway!)</p> <p>Overall though, its a really excellent first score and I am chuffed to bits!</p> <p> On top of this, I have had some gorgeous flowers delivered to work from Sean. AND Im going for a nice meal with him tonight instead of just staying in! </p> <p> I'm really REALLY happy, REALLY really loved up and really just fantastic...</p> <p>... For today....</p> <p>.......... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/21/oh-happy-day-5418547/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>seanhappyworkflowersprhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/21/oh-happy-day-5418547/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/20/an-engaging-blog-5411305/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-01-20:/2009/01/20/an-engaging-blog-5411305/Tue, 20 Jan 2009 12:23:12 +0100 <p><a title="n652366021_1782146_8796" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/n652366021_1782146_8796/3159841"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/841/3159841_e6fb778880_m.jpg" alt="n652366021_1782146_8796" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a><a title="n652366021_1782164_4273" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/n652366021_1782164_4273/3159840"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/840/3159840_cf13ba771f_m.jpg" alt="n652366021_1782164_4273" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a><a title="n652366021_1782147_9374" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/n652366021_1782147_9374/3159839"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/839/3159839_5bf2da6625_m.jpg" alt="n652366021_1782147_9374" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a><a title="17012009043" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/17012009043/3159838"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/838/3159838_8e77e67868_m.jpg" alt="17012009043" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a></p> <p>One of the gifts that I got Sean for Christmas was a trip to London to see the west end show Wicked. The trip was from 16th to 18th of January and we had an absolutely "wicked" time!  I had planned a little surprise for Sean and straight after the show, walked him over to opposite the London eye on the banks of the Thames, sat him down and told him I had wrote him a letter. However, I said I had something else to give him first and gave him a ring.. and asked him to marry me.  Along with the ring, I gave him the letter and a poem. The poem was nothing amazing but he liked it.  I find it so much harder to write about love than I do heartache.  It is extremely out of character for me to have done anything like proposing to someone. For a starters I always saw me as been the proposee rather than the proposor... I have also never been engaged before and have never really been able to see myself with someone for long enough to warrant marrying them.  However, I genuinely feel as tho I want to spend forever with him and so I thought I would go for it!  We had talked about it between ourselves anyway and I was quietly confident that he wouldn't say no.. (and he didn't.. thank god!) I think he would agree that it ended up been quite a romantic weekend AND proposal! Memorable at least! :-)</p> <p> Ill try to upload a photo of his ring (no pun intended) but I do love it.. it is platinum with a ickle diamond in the middle and was handmade.  I thought if this is the person that Im going to be spending the rest of my life with, I should get him something that is timeless, simple and yet beautiful.. Just like the person that its going to :-P</p> <p> Today, I am in a foul mood unfortunately. I have awoken on the wrong side of the bed and am wearing one of those "scowling" faces at work! Speaking of work, better get back to the grind stone!</p> <p>Enjoy your day all... xxxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/20/an-engaging-blog-5411305/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>londonproposalcuddle-whorewickedseanengagedphotoshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/20/an-engaging-blog-5411305/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/14/paranoid-android-5375610/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-01-14:/2009/01/14/paranoid-android-5375610/Wed, 14 Jan 2009 12:15:51 +0100 <p><a title="n652366021_1715687_4949" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/n652366021_1715687_4949/3137739"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/739/3137739_70dca15a09_m.jpg" alt="n652366021_1715687_4949" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a></p> <p>Last night I was miserable with no good reason. I went for a lovely meal at the Cuddle Whores sisters and then when we returned home, a dark cloud set itself squarely above my head and proceeded to piss all over me (no, am not talking watersports.)</p> <p>  I managed to wind myself up to the point where I completely tired myself out and then went to sleep. I think a big part of me is always thinking that I am not good enough for Sean or indeed, not good enough for anyone! Why? Well, because I dont earn enough to support us and to buy him all the luxuries I believe he deserves, not good enough because I dont drive, and not good enough because I sometimes look in the mirror and feel physically sick at what is staring back at me. How have I managed to catch such a beautiful creature?! I sit and wonder what on earth he sees in me, and as I cant see what it is, I convince myself that one day he will wake up and realise that there really isn't that much to me.  I am a Very paranoid android! The one thing that I have found though, is that Sean has the patience that could only be compared to that of a Nun. He talks things through with me, tells me why Im wrong about what Im thinking.. He is even taking me for a meal tonight, because I was a twat last night...  If I wasn't the biggest pessimist this side of the continent, I would almost say that he really does love <strong><span>ME</span></strong>. Bizarre. Nice, but bizarre.</p> <p>xxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/14/paranoid-android-5375610/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>cuddle-whoreloveparanoidseanadiehttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/14/paranoid-android-5375610/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/13/trust-issues-5370323/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-01-13:/2009/01/13/trust-issues-5370323/Tue, 13 Jan 2009 12:34:25 +0100 <p>Do you ever do something, thinking that your proving how reliable, loyal and lovely you are, thinking that you are hiding absolutely nothing ... and then stumble across something that gives you that  *oh fuck me sideways, my heart is in my mouth, oh my Jesus bloody Christ will the ground not swallow me up* feeling when you realise that you have actually just revealed something that you shouldn't have, surprising both yourself and your lesbian lifetime lover sitting to your left...</p> <p>I did that. Last night. And the cause? Me and Richard.</p> <p>  It was back when I first met Sean, within the first couple of weeks. When we were dating, I got the impression that me and him were going to take things slow, mainly due to my recent split with Andy and what I misread as Seans severe love of the scene and all things "gay and single.."... I could never have imagined that we would be where we are now and that I would feel as strong for him as I now do, and this is my only defence...</p> <p> I basically bragged to Richard about Sean and about him been the best looking person that I had dated, but there was also a bit of flirting in there. Nothing too terrible but just me basically jumping when he said jump and showing that I still was not over him at that time. Obviously when I was going through my emails showing Sean how trustworthy I could be, it was not what either of us wanted to come across and I was as surprised as him to find it.  I froze and was unsure what to do which Sean misread as me not caring.. and so eventually,  I did the only thing I could do and gave him a big cuddle.  We managed to talk it out eventually and by the end of the night, I managed to get him back on my side. My explanation only been that at the time I had the conversation with Richard, the spell was not broken. I can honestly say that is now, and as long as me and Sean are together, I dont think its a good idea me been in touch with someone that has hindered me so over the last few years.</p> <p> I am hoping that last night is the last time that Tricky Dicky will ever darken my door....Fingers crossed!</p> <p>xxxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/13/trust-issues-5370323/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>seanrichardcuddle-whoretrusthttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/13/trust-issues-5370323/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/12/title-5363864/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2009-01-12:/2009/01/12/title-5363864/Mon, 12 Jan 2009 12:14:48 +0100 <p><span>I have not been very good at blogging nowadays. Unfortunately, I dont see things getting better anytime in the near future so to anyone who does come back on a regular occurance for an update, Im sorry.  However, I wanted to formerly introduce you to the Cuddle Whore. I was a bit apprehensive about getting together with someone so soon after me and Andy split up which is why I didn't want to rush in and start blogging about how I'd met someone else etc. I also dont want to come here and start harping on about how wonderful Sean is, and how things feel different with him than they have done before. You have heard it all before (as Sean (cuddle whore) himself pointed out to me..) I am not going to justify anything that I have said in the past or may say in the future. I obviously felt like I did at the time that I posted and I have learnt to have no regrets.</span></p> <p> </p> <p><span> What I will say, is that:-</span></p> <p> </p> <p> </p> <p> </p> <p><span>A.  The cuddle whore has finally broken the "Richard" spell. I think I had a lot of personal issues to do with that relationship and how it has affected me over the last 18 months. I maintain that I loved Richard and maybe he is the only other person Ive ever loved but to love with no return is the worst feeling in the world. Maybe the only person that knows the full extent would be Jasey and Stacey as I remember a few  chats I have had in the past. Up until I got together with Sean, I was in regular contact with Richard and to cut a long story short, I dont think it was healthy for me as it kept me hanging on.  I have now cut that contact and am happier in doing so.</span></p> <p> </p> <p><span>B. He knows <span>ALL</span> of my secrets and I know his. The good ones, the bad ones and the truly terrible ones. And he has not judged me for any of it. And with everything, he loves me just the way I am and tells me so every day. I think Andy was right when he said me and him were in instant lust to start with and then when the true picture of each other was painted, we didn't like what we saw. I feel that Sean knows me more than anyone ever has and he is the only person that I feel still loves me with my warts, scabs and pimples and all.</span></p> <p> </p> <p><span>C. I wake up every day and I feel so lucky to have met Sean. I look at him and my heart skips a beat. He is perfect in every way that someone can be perfect.  I just want to take good care of him and give him the world where as in the past Ive always been the one who needed taking care of. Maybe thats where I've always gone wrong.</span></p> <p> </p> <p><span>And finally, instead of ruining it for myself before I even give it chance by doing silly things like I have done in the past, Im going to tell everyone the truth over how I feel, and how amazing I think he is. Im going to give him my heart and what he chooses to do with it is completely up to him.  I have to give someone a real chance... Im learning slowly but surely! </p> <p><a title="n579476554_1711826_9662" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/n579476554_1711826_9662/3137737"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/737/3137737_4469c6699a_m.jpg" alt="n579476554_1711826_9662" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a></span></p> <p><span>I can only hope that he feels half for me as I do for him. </span></p> <p> </p> <p> </p> <p> </p> <p><span>So There u go... :-) xx More Pics to be uploaded soon... Appears to be a problem with tags or summink... xx<br></span></p> <p> </p> <p> </p> <p> </p> <p><span><br></span><span><br></span></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/12/title-5363864/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>seanlovecuddle-whorehttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2009/01/12/title-5363864/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/26/christmas-day-presents-cuddle-whore-bev-mum-gifts-5278579/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-12-26:/2008/12/26/christmas-day-presents-cuddle-whore-bev-mum-gifts-5278579/Fri, 26 Dec 2008 02:08:54 +0100 <p>Hello From Sunny Stoke-On-Trent,<br> Firstly, A big merry Christmas to all of my family and friends both on and offline.. I know I promised that I would write before today but as am a lazy filthy scamp, am prone to not keeping promises and so ended up not blogging.</p> <p> So far have had a brilliant Christmas. I am not sitting in front of my presents but I will present to you what I can remember getting:-</p> <p>A stocking full of sweets/treats/playthings - Dame Kazduck<br> A hunks 2009 calendar - Dame Kazduck<br> 2 really nice t shirts from River Island - Dame Kazduck<br> A "grow your own girlfriend" - Dame Kazduck<br> Sophie Kinsellas new novel - Dame Kazduck<br> £100.00 Cash - Daddy and Julie<br> Emporio Armani He EDT - Daddy And Julie<br> Mistletoe boxers... U know where the mistletoes gonna be.. ;-) - Daddy and Julie<br> A little black book and wallet - Daddy and Julie<br> Topman PJ bottoms that ive been asking for for ages and vest - Beverley Anne and the gang<br> Topman T shirt which is very groovy - Beverley Anne and the gang<br> Chip and Dale/Tinkerbell/Family Guy DVD - Mikey my housemate<br> Boots voucher - Nana and grandad<br> Princess Parking sign for my bedroom door (SO groovy) - Mikey my housemate<br> Girls Aloud Album - Secret Santa present</p> <p> So far also had from the cuddle whore:-</p> <p>Wicked Book<br> Pyjama bottoms from topman but different to the ones that Beverley Anne gave me so excellent buy!<br> Pride and Prejudice DVD/Sweeny Todd DVD/Bareback Mountain DVD (is actually brokeback mountain)<br> Big fat slab of unhealthy yummy choc filled with fudge/marshmallows etc...<br> and finally:-<br> Slippers!!! (which was really weird as I was just saying to my mum yesterday how I could do with some!)</p> <p> So far very very good... and The cuddle whore is coming up to see me in Stoke tomorrow where we are trading the rest of our presents..Im excited about it now! Im hoping to convince him that he wants to move here with me when I finally come back! Im just hoping that everyone gets along well! </p> <p>Merry Christmas Everyone! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/26/christmas-day-presents-cuddle-whore-bev-mum-gifts-5278579/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>cuddle-whorechristmas-daypresentsbevmumgiftshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/26/christmas-day-presents-cuddle-whore-bev-mum-gifts-5278579/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/22/christmas-time-5261910/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-12-22:/2008/12/22/christmas-time-5261910/Mon, 22 Dec 2008 23:15:58 +0100 <p>Tomorrow I am going back up to Stoke. I can't wait. I have not seen my family in over a month. When I don't see them, I pine for them.. Usually if I dont see them in 3 weeks, I can feel myself getting edgy on the few days before going to see them. After over 4 weeks of not seeing them though, I actually managed a breakdown. It felt as though over the Christmas period, I had done nothing that made me feel in the spirit of things. I hadn't put up a Christmas tree, nor Christmas decorations. I wasn't there to smell the pate as my mum made it for the 5000, I didn't bear witness to Jaya trying to smuggle chocolates off the tree. I hadn't seen my family to discuss our christmas plans which just meant that all in all, I was feeling very very unhappy. I wondered around playing the puppy clown whore as I always do, but inside something was building up. </p> <p> It came to a head last Thursday when I got home from work and tried to start wrapping some Christmas presents. One thing led to another and I became an evil troll beast from hell and was absolutely vile to The Cuddle Whore, who remained patient and understanding during my strop. He came around in super quick time to try and sort me out but I seemed to be filled with what can only be described as "something." After a lot of "talking it out," we decided that I needed to do something Christmassy with my family when I went up to Stoke, so I gave Dame Kazduck a call to discuss my requirements. I asked if we could do something to get me in a Christmassy mood on Christmas Eve when I was up and as she was going to be busy on Christmas eve, she responded that she really didn't know if she would have the time. I attempted to get off the phone before the tears started rolling but failed miserably and ended up in a full sobbing mess, the cuddle whore sat next to me stroking my leg and giving me hugs and my mum reassuring me that we would make time to do something "christmassy" on Christmas eve. </p> <p> The next day, the cuddle whore took me to a few shops and was insistent on me getting some Christmas decorations for my bedroom so that I could tack the place up. He brought around tinsel and coloured lights from his mums house and I got an array of tack from Wilkinsons and the 99p store, inclusive of a little real Christmas tree from Wilkos with glitter in it! We spent Friday night putting up all of the decorations and for the first time this year, I got a bit of a warm Christmassy glow. I have got a lot to thank him for.</p> <p> So I decided to book an extra day off work so that I could see my family just them few hours earlier. Bev is going to come and get me tomorrow because I have several bags of pressies to take up with me! </p> <p> Im really gonna miss the cuddle whore though. He's coming up on 26th to come to a family party.. But I'll miss the little bugger in the meantime. He's been great..</p> <p>Hope that all of you are in festive spirits. I will post before Christmas day.</p> <p>Ad<br> xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/22/christmas-time-5261910/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>bevfamilycuddle-whoreseanchristmassadhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/22/christmas-time-5261910/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/11/old-habits-die-hard-5204116/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-12-11:/2008/12/11/old-habits-die-hard-5204116/Thu, 11 Dec 2008 17:36:07 +0100 <p>Well Im back to never blogging again. What a shame.. I was getting so good at it for them couple of weeks as well!</p> <p> Christmas is coming up and I just have a couple more things to buy and then am all done! I am spending Christmas with my family up in Stoke (where I belong) and then the cuddle whore will be coming up to meet Dame Kazduck and Beverley Anne around 27th December. I think he's looking forward to meeting the family and making it kind of "official" but he is a shy bunny so Ive asked the Dame if we can go out on the 27th to bring him out of his shell.. </p> <p> I really dont have much else to say at the moment... Cant wait to see my family! Lol xx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/11/old-habits-die-hard-5204116/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/12/11/old-habits-die-hard-5204116/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/28/shopping-shirts-and-sillyness-5125406/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-28:/2008/11/28/shopping-shirts-and-sillyness-5125406/Fri, 28 Nov 2008 12:07:55 +0100 <ul> <li>Have had a mini shop-a-thon online over the last couple of days, bringing in the bacon for Christmas! The trouble is, Im a little confused over how Im going to ship the buggers all up to Stoke. Santa may have to buy a sack! </li> <li>Some serious talks commenced with the cuddle whore last night. After a brief clearing of the air, we resumed cuddleage and all was ok in the world of the whore bags.</li> <li>Tried my Christmas shirt on this morning before work and it fits lovely. So I have to make sure on the Christmas party day, I do not eat/drink anything at all. I am going to see if I can find someone with a damned good drug habit and just snort cocaine and inject heroin all night instead of consuming fluids and foods. (Mummy, If you are reading this, am joking.)</li> <li>Going to an enagagement party tonight with the cuddle whore and first time am going to meet some of his friends from work. It has already been confirmed yesterday that I am not the "cute" one and so I am going to have to put a bit of effort into my presentation to ensure that I look like I could "suit" him. Pah.</li> </ul> <p>xxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/28/shopping-shirts-and-sillyness-5125406/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>christmaspartycuddle-whoreshoppinghttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/28/shopping-shirts-and-sillyness-5125406/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/27/work-party-shirt-diet-cuddle-whore-broad-kev-5117688/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-27:/2008/11/27/work-party-shirt-diet-cuddle-whore-broad-kev-5117688/Thu, 27 Nov 2008 09:55:25 +0100 <ul> <li>Tragedy has occured. Lovely new shirt that I tried on at weekend.. and that fit at weekend.. no longer fits. In fact, has big pulling stretching marks around the chest where my nipples are screaming to come out to play. Am not happy. Only one thing for it. Crash diet.... someone pass me a stick of celery to munch on!?</li> <li>Party on saturday is looming... My guests are going to include the Cuddle Whore, Fun Time Stacey and Kevin Glowstick (a nice guy from work..)  Am getting excited now!</li> <li>Pressy buying for xmas is nearly complete now. Just got mother and the Cuddle Whore to buy for and then I am done.</li> <li>Called the cuddle whore by his real name at work the other day and noone knew who I was talking about. Thinking about asking him to offiicially change his name so that I dont have to explain to everyone who he is. </li> <li>Nearly ended up committing murder at work yesterday. Girl who I work with goes on... and on and on ... and on... about nothing.. and everything... and something... A bit like I do here only you dont have a choice on whether you pay attention to her because she is right in your face.  I am also her personal skivvy and she doesn't appreciate anything that I do for her which just winds me up.  I thought I could put up with anyone but in the end I had to request a desk move... Told them that otherwise I would end up throwing her out of a window! </li> </ul> <p>xxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/27/work-party-shirt-diet-cuddle-whore-broad-kev-5117688/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>shirtkevpartydietbroadworkcuddle-whorehttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/27/work-party-shirt-diet-cuddle-whore-broad-kev-5117688/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/25/food-glorious-fooooood-5105237/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-25:/2008/11/25/food-glorious-fooooood-5105237/Tue, 25 Nov 2008 15:27:36 +0100 <ul> <li>Met Cuddle Whores folks last night. Awkwardness on toast. Am very family friendly once I get going but unfortunately the engine on my personality failed to kick in which just left me giving shy looks and one word answers.  Cuddle whore then cooked me very huge, very delicious Lamb roast along with home made stuffing, pigs in blankets, cauliflower cheese, roasted sweet potatoes, potatoes, red onions, leeks, along with Yorkshire puddings. Was lovely. Cuddle whore will make someone a very good wifey one day! </li> <li>Fear that may have come to the height of my good luck on weight situation. A few people have said that I have noticeably lost some weight which has pleased me greatly. However, eating habits have changed recently back to the old times and think am back on the slippery slope to the fatclub.</li> <li>Could just eat an indian takeaway.</li> </ul> <p>xxx</p> <p> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/25/food-glorious-fooooood-5105237/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>foodweighthttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/25/food-glorious-fooooood-5105237/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/24/stoke-trains-and-cuddle-whore-5097336/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-24:/2008/11/24/stoke-trains-and-cuddle-whore-5097336/Mon, 24 Nov 2008 13:00:00 +0100 <ul> <li>Had lovely weekend in Stoke with the family this weekend. Finally got meat and potato pie on Friday night after years in waiting. Was worth it though. The dame truly can cook when she sets her mind to it! Im hoping for pate when I next visit. Was a little sad when I left yesterday as realised will now not see them until 23rd December.. Thats one whole month.. But unfortunately it is just the way the cookie has crumbled with parties/Holidays and whatnot! Love my family I do. </li> <li>Had night out on Saturday with the Dame and Beverley Anne. Feels like ages since we have all been together and had merryments. What with babies, boyfriends, work and money, it isnt always the easiest thing to arrange. Think we made up for it though! Paraleticdom definitely took place. And apparantly got to pull my own pint.. tho, this I cannot remember. </li> <li>The throat/head is 100% better now. However, have got a bit of a dicky tummy and sicky feeling. While on train packed like sardine yesterday, went green sweaty and threw up everywhere... all down myself, all over the wall and a little bit in the toilet as I only just made it through the crowds in time. Unfortunately, the train was THAT packed that people were crowded IN the toilet which meant that everyone bore witness to it... and to my undressing out of my sicky clothes... and to my attempt at cleaning sick off the wall... Embarrassment hit off the radar... going to send email to train company when I get spare chance. Not paying to be packed into train like sardine and perform throwing up stunts for crowds of onlookers! </li> <li>Cuddle whore came around last night and we watched "The Devil Wears Prada"... Very good movie and was nice and toasty warm under duvet on sofa. Actually becoming quite fond of him and not the kind of fondness that one gets for the homeless, or stray dog. A genuine fondness of spending time with him. And I maintain, could pop him as decoration on Chrismas tree as he is so pretty..</li> </ul> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/24/stoke-trains-and-cuddle-whore-5097336/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>virginilltraincuddle-whorestokesickhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/24/stoke-trains-and-cuddle-whore-5097336/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/21/questionnaire-5077394/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-21:/2008/11/21/questionnaire-5077394/Fri, 21 Nov 2008 23:05:53 +0100 <p>Name: Adrian Williams<br> Birthday: 13th July 1984<br> Birthplace: Stoke On Trent, UK<br> age: 24<br> Current Location: My sisters living room<br> Eye Color: brown<br> Hair Color: Brown<br> Height: 5 ft 10<br> Right Handed or Left Handed: right<br> Your Heritage: Not gorra clue...<br> The Shoes You Wore Today: My cream ones with brown straps<br> Your Weakness: Takeaways<br> Your Fears: Aeroplanes and spiders<br> Your Perfect Pizza: Ham and mushroom with sweetcorn<br> Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Lose a bit of weight<br> Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol/LMAO when Im not really laughing<br> Thoughts First Waking Up: Oh god, not work again...<br> Your Best Physical Feature: Eyebrows.. ?<br> Your Bedtime: Anywhere between 9pm-4.30am<br> Your Most Missed Memory: Im not sure what this means...<br> Pepsi or Coke: diet coke<br> MacDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonalds every time.. .<br> Single or Group Dates: single<br> Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Not had either I dont think...<br> Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate<br> Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee<br> Do you Smoke: Nopies... Vile habit!<br> Do you Swear: all the fucking time<br> Do you Sing: Only in the shower or when noone else is around!<br> Do you Shower Daily: Yes<br> Have you Been in Love:  Obviously not in love enough cos Im single..<br> Do you want to go to College: Never went, never regretted going<br> Do you want to get Married: One day, yes<br> Do you believe in urself: Nahh, not really<br> Do you get Motion Sickness: no<br> Do you think you are Attractive: not particularly.. I am an acquired taste.<br> Are you a Health Freak: nope<br> Do you get along with your Parents: Yep, love em to bits<br> Do you like Thunderstorms: No, cos I worry about my mum cos she has a phobia.<br> Ever been Drunk: Quite often<br> Ever been called a Tease: Always... All makeup, no tits I am!<br> Ever been Beaten up: Yep, once or twice...<br> Ever Shoplifted: When i was about 10 yes...<br> How do you want to Die: Happy<br> What country would you most like to Visit: India, and its one of the only places that would get me back on an aeroplane.<br> In a Boy/Girl..<br> Favourite Eye Color: brown<br> Favourite Hair Color: brown/black<br> Short or Long Hair: Short<br> Height: Tall<br> Weight: Chunky but not fat</p> <p>Best Clothing Style: Casual<br> Number of Drugs I have taken: I had a dabble at one point but nothing too heavy<br> Number of CDs I own: About 5<br> Number of Piercings: 3, ear, tongue and nipple<br> Number of Tattoos: 1<br> Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many to choose from but am learning by my mistakes.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/21/questionnaire-5077394/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>questionnairehttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/21/questionnaire-5077394/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/19/lurgy-5061946/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-19:/2008/11/19/lurgy-5061946/Wed, 19 Nov 2008 11:05:33 +0100 <ul> <li>Have come down with terrible lurgy. Throat feels like it may fall off and having hot flushes as lady in menopause would. Got sent home from work yesterday and last night the cuddle whore came to the rescue, bringing lovely food (I noticed there were even a few supermarkets finest range in there) and even some medication (Ben and Jerrys and Green and Blacks choc flapjack biscuits.)  I will be eternally grateful for looking after me in my hours of need. Have rang in sick today as still feel as though someone has got a razor to my throat.</li> </ul> <p>xx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/19/lurgy-5061946/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>illhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/19/lurgy-5061946/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/17/weekends-judgement-and-sales-targets-5050554/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-17:/2008/11/17/weekends-judgement-and-sales-targets-5050554/Mon, 17 Nov 2008 11:38:51 +0100 <ul> <li>Bit of a mad weekend... Been pissed for most of it. Birmingham was fun on Saturday night although did have to look after the cuddle whore when he started spewing his guts up. Or at least, that was excuse he came up with for having dirty knees. </li> <li>Bad judgement on Saturday shopping meant ended up looking like lumberjack on Saturday night when out. Was a little devastated but couldnt not wear it as was new top. Braved the lumberjack jokes well though. Even gave a few hearty butch "ARRRGHS" to humour the gays.</li> <li>Starting to look like I may hit my sales target for the first month this month. Had a few fat invoices that have come out to play and I am starting to get a little excited! Money Money Money!!</li> <li>Dame Kazduck has promised Meat and Potato pie this Friday. I am so excited, I think I may give a lil girly squeel if it all goes through! </li> <li>Got told no less than 5 times yesterday that I was stunning... For weeks, noone has even told me that I am even presentable, then all of a sudden I am Mr Gay UK for a day! Bizarre folk, gays! x</li> </ul> <p> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/17/weekends-judgement-and-sales-targets-5050554/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>worksalesgaysweekendshirtclotheshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/17/weekends-judgement-and-sales-targets-5050554/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/15/hangovers-hunches-and-payday-early-5040425/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-15:/2008/11/15/hangovers-hunches-and-payday-early-5040425/Sat, 15 Nov 2008 18:27:31 +0100 <p><a title="14112008257" href="http://www.blog.co.uk/media/photo/14112008257/2989474"><img src="http://data5.blog.de/media/474/2989474_d01b37d536_m.jpg" alt="14112008257" hspace="5" vspace="5"></a></p> <ul> <li>Above is photo of me and Meera last night. Got very drunken and disorderly and have felt terrible all day today.  Tonight is Fitlads drinkathon in Birmingham. Gonna have to surface shortly to start plucking and preening myself in prep.</li> <li>Looked at bank account today and have been paid! Not meant to go into account until Monday but payday came early. Tears of joy followed by a spendathon in town! (new top and vodka)</li> </ul> <p>xx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/15/hangovers-hunches-and-payday-early-5040425/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>shoppingpaydaymeeraphotohttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/15/hangovers-hunches-and-payday-early-5040425/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/14/automatic-5037200/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-14:/2008/11/14/automatic-5037200/Fri, 14 Nov 2008 21:41:26 +0100 <p>I like this song but I like the video even more!!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/14/automatic-5037200/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>automatichttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/14/automatic-5037200/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/14/t-total-fitlads-and-indian-food-5035052/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-14:/2008/11/14/t-total-fitlads-and-indian-food-5035052/Fri, 14 Nov 2008 14:00:13 +0100 <ul> <li>Very proud of self right now. Stayed in last night and was asleep for 11pm at the very latest. Woke up this morning feeling fabulous. Walked in work and didn't get usual looks of sympathy mixed with disgust. Woopee!</li> <li>Got night out with friend Meera and Harvi tonight. Taking the cuddle whore along as guest.  Should be a good night but only have pennies to spend as tomorrow is big gay night out in Brum with the Fitlads (whom the majority of, should be done under the trading standards act - the ugly barstewards!)</li> <li>Having an "indian food" day at work today! We have Bhajis, Samosas, and Meera has brought me in yummy yummy veggie curry with rice! Ill be honest, I could marry her mother as her cooking is the best... would quite happily shag her boyfriend too! (ongoing joke that we have...) She simply has the whole package for me!! </li> </ul> <p>xxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/14/t-total-fitlads-and-indian-food-5035052/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>night-outindianthursdayfitladshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/14/t-total-fitlads-and-indian-food-5035052/#commentshttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/12/cracking-smiles-cuddle-whores-and-cakes-5022826/tag:phoenix2k.blog.co.uk,2008-11-12:/2008/11/12/cracking-smiles-cuddle-whores-and-cakes-5022826/Wed, 12 Nov 2008 11:49:30 +0100 <ul> <li>Much happier this morning. Amused myself by hiding from the woman that was picking me up and taking me to work which meant she had to do a 400 metre run to find me....long story.</li> <li>As stated last night... am indeed a puppy dog clown but not unhappy as one. People just need to know that even a puppy dog clown has down days. Do like to make people smile though. </li> <li>Another night of Disney tonight. Got a 3 month free trial with Lovefilm again. Aladdin is the chosen one today. Feel may break into "a whole new world" as loud as lungs can muster. Altho, dont wanna scare the cuddle whore coming around. He hasn't heard me sing yet.</li> <li>Decided that weight watchers cakes are not a good thing. Altho only 75 calories per carrot cake slice, slices are so dainty and tasty that feel have to eat 7 of them to fill gap. Not good.</li> <li>Definitely not out tomorrow night. Having a Thursday night off so work do not suspect alcoholism taking place. Next week will be back to old tricks.</li> </ul> <p>Have a great day everyone. xxxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/12/cracking-smiles-cuddle-whores-and-cakes-5022826/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>happiercakesnight-outcuddle-whoredvdweight-watcherspuppy-dog-clowndisneyhttp://phoenix2k.blog.co.uk/2008/11/12/cracking-smiles-cuddle-whores-and-cakes-5022826/#comments